“When I Go” – Conversations with Death 8
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Coda – Born in a forked-tongue story, but touching the star
Carter and Grammer’s “The Mountain” mines some of the same thematic territory as“When I Go.” From their 2000 album, Tanglewood Tree, “The Mountain” incorporates a similar notion of the soul’s reintegration into the natural world. It also reflects on the varieties and vicissitudes of religious traditions. Lest you think I’m completely off-base with the thematic resonance with Spoon River Anthology, give “When I Go” a listen, and then give “The Mountain” a listen (keep an ear out for waves, grace, and dreams).
Listen to the studio version on YouTube or Spotify. Lyrics
Then read “Elijah Browning,” the poem that marks the end of the epitaphs in Spoon River Anthology.
Elijah Browning
I was among multitudes of children
Dancing at the foot of a mountain.
A breeze blew out of the east and swept them as leaves,
Driving some up the slopes…. All was changed.
Here were flying lights, and mystic moons, and dream-music.
A cloud fell upon us. When it lifted all was changed.
I was now amid multitudes who were wrangling.
Then a figure in shimmering gold, and one with a trumpet,
And one with a sceptre stood before me.
They mocked me and danced a rigadoon and vanished….
All was changed again. Out of a bower of poppies
A woman bared her breasts and lifted her open mouth to mine.
I kissed her. The taste of her lips was like salt.
She left blood on my lips. I fell exhausted.
I arose and ascended higher, but a mist as from an iceberg
Clouded my steps. I was cold and in pain.
Then the sun streamed on me again,
And I saw the mists below me hiding all below them.
And I, bent over my staff, knew myself
Silhouetted against the snow. And above me
Was the soundless air, pierced by a cone of ice,
Over which hung a solitary star!
A shudder of ecstasy, a shudder of fear
Ran through me. But I could not return to the slopes —
Nay, I wished not to return.
For the spent waves of the symphony of freedom
Lapped the ethereal cliffs about me.
Therefore I climbed to the pinnacle.
I flung away my staff.
I touched that star
With my outstretched hand.
I vanished utterly.
For the mountain delivers to Infinite Truth
Whosoever touches the star!
–Edgar Lee Masters
Thanks for reading. Special thanks to Tracy Grammer for responding to my questions and helping with pictures. Thanks also to Sing Out! for introducing me to Dave Carter & Tracy Grammer’s music with “Tillman Co.” many moons ago.