Alone & Forsaken: Van Morrison’s T.B. Blues
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Released against his wishes on an LP he never approved, âT.B. Sheetsâ was one of a handful of tracks recorded in March 1967 (âBrown-Eyed Girlâ was another) and set aside for Morrisonâs debut as a solo artist. The moody singer, late of Belfastâs working-class blues rockers, Them, only learned of the materialâs release when a friend mentioned heâd bought the album. Blowinâ Your Mind! was an embarrassment for its stupid title, condescending cover art, and disrespect for its creator – a cynical move by a tone-deaf industry still thinking of rock as teenybopper music. But its songs capture Morrison at a creative crossroads, on the verge of the artistic breakthrough that produced 1968âs masterful Astral Weeks, with its unique blend of folk, jazz, rock, and impressionistic, alternately dark/light lyrics. In many ways, âT.B. Sheetsâ is a veritable dry run for complex song-portraits like âSlim Slow Sliderâ and âMadame George.â
The songâs chorus – the only recurring text in the song – is a devilâs whisper, urging the singer to flee:
The cool room, Lord, is a foolâs room
The cool room, Lord, is a foolâs room
And I can almost smell your T.B. sheets
And I can almost smell your T.B. sheets
The words are visceral – evoking sense memory so specific (âI can almost smellâŚâ) the sick room appears with repellent realism. Throughout, the songâs tone is pained and resentful – emotions that often accompany prolonged illness but are usually repressed in polite company. One phrase in the lyric – a fleeting, unspoken thought – sticks out for its impenetrable mix of grief, anger, and self-loathing: âyour little star-struck innuendos, inadequacies, and foreign bodies.â It is painful, agonizing, to watch a partner die, and part of us resents them for putting us through this misery.
So open up the window and let me breathe
I said open up the window and let me breathe
Iâm looking down to the street below
Lord I cried for you, I cried, I cried for you
Oh Lord
The musicians play on, prolonging contemplation with alluring monotony, and the singer grows increasingly frantic. His girl begs him to stay, asks him to bring her a drink of water, but heâs already backing towards the door: âI gotta go, I gotta go, baby.â And then, pathetically: âIâll send somebody around later.â A friend is coming later, he says, with a bottle of wine theyâll all share, as if her condition warranted a party. He turns on a radio for her, offering music, at least, in lieu of human companionship: âIf you wanna hear a few tunes there you go, there you go, baby,â and leaves her in the darkness.
The listener leaves, too, forced by the trackâs fade-out (originally followed by the LPâs end-of-side-one run-off groove; I imagine a stunned shaking of heads with no one rising to turn the record over). The songâs relentless focus on the young manâs thoughts plus Morrisonâs gut-wrenching performance inevitably put us in the singerâs place and by songâs end, with no catharsis possible, his sense of panic and dread is such that we want out too. Consequently, itâs hard to listen without feeling complicit in his abdication.
Open up the window
“What’s natural is the microbe.”
— Albert Camus, The Plague
As an amateur genealogist Iâve spent countless hours pouring over old death certificates – mostly from the early 20th century and my home state of Kentucky. My forebears were rural and urban, farmers and steamboat captains, and thereâs something fascinating about studying their mortal circumstances. Everybody dies so itâs interesting to see what everybody dies of, especially during an era recent enough to seem both grandparent near and sepia tone far.
Then as now, most people died of depressingly familiar ailments. The Big Three remain: heart disease, cancer, and stroke. Old people often died of âsenilityâ (âold ageâ in prewar parlance). Accidents were common, sometimes with an antique flavor (ârun over by street carâ) or ballad-like air of tragedy (e.g., a married couple, recreating with their children, who âdrowned in the riverâ). More prosaic are the many victims of once lethal, now largely eradicated infectious diseases – maladies that terrified our ancestors now neutered by childhood needle jabs, like diphtheria, smallpox, measles, whooping cough, polio, typhoid, and tuberculosis. In 19th century America it was not unusual for every second or third child born to die of such an illness. Consequently, with birth control and inoculation both distant dreams, many women spent much of their lives pregnant and grieving a recently lost child.
Tuberculosis is ubiquitous in those Kentucky death certificates. An airborne contagion, it most often settled in the lungs, causing gradual weight loss and suffocation. The poor and city dwellers were hardest hit. Victims who could afford to often drew their last breaths in sanatoriums – long-term medical facilities that offered bed rest, fresh air, and supervised nutrition in lieu of a cure (streptomycin, the first effective treatment, wasnât available until 1949). In advanced cases painful surgical procedures – the removal of ribs and collapsing of lungs – also occurred.
Equally lethal in Van Morrisonâs Ireland, tuberculosis ravaged the impoverished nation well into the 20th century, remaining the third most common cause of death among children until after the Second World War. While Europe overall made strides combating the disease, reducing mortality rates from 25% of all deaths in the 19th century to under 10% by the 1950s (when Morrison was a child), poverty, substandard living conditions, and lack of access to medical care, exacerbated by prejudice, left the Irish especially vulnerable. Consequently, for natives of Morrisonâs generation, T.B. remained the stuff of nightmares and vivid childhood memory.